As I lay in my bed listening to Gateway Worship, I focus in on a conversation that I had with a beautiful friend of mine. She reminded me a lot of myself. I remembered how I once viewed my looks. I based my entire identity on how I thought others saw me. Some of it came from experiences that I had had. Such as the time in 9th grade when a boy, who I thought was incredibly attractive, said to me: “Oh my god you’re so ugly I would never date you.” Or the countless occasions when my two lovely sisters got all of the attention from guys and I on the other hand received nothing – not even a glance in my direction. I’d be lying if I said that those things did not have a negative affect on me.
I spent the majority of my life thinking I was ugly and would forever be single. I thought my parents gave all the attractive genes to my 5 siblings and left nothing for me. I would refuse to accept complements from family and friends because I felt as though they were just being nice. I was broken on the inside and wanted nothing more than for a guy to want me and somehow prove that I wasn’t as bad looking as I thought.
It wasn’t until I began to ask God to help me to see myself the way He sees me, and to help me to love myself the way He loves me that the chains of low self-esteem began to break off. It’s a process worth experiencing and vital to being able to truly live a life of freedom in Christ. Everyday that I spend with my Savior I come into a deeper understanding of my true identity. God affirms me and assures me that I am His daughter and He is pleased with me.
I realized that my identity isn’t found in what I thought about myself, or what people thought, or what society says my identity should be. But rather my identity is simply and fully a child of the loving Creator of the entire universe and that I am made in His image and likeness. And that is where I find freedom. In accepting my position as Gods daughter.
And it is the desire of my heart that both women and men alike will accept their position as Gods children. It is already a reality but now it is a matter of believing it for yourself. Here, on this blog, I’d like to offer some encouragement to all to take the time to read.
I leave you with this verse:
“I praise You. For I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are Your works; my soul knows it very well.”
Daughter of God